Can I keep believing even when God appears to me as an enemy? Will I continue to trust in the goodness and kindness of God?

Several theological reasons are offered for the problem of suffering. Some say it is because of sin, others say it’s because God wants to test us, or because of the freedom God has given humans to choose evil or good. These are not necessarily wrong, but when you are in the middle of disappointment, like I was, they often do not suffice. When we are suffering and disappointed, it is more helpful to know how God uses our pain than to know why we experience pain. I do not know which of these are correct. I cannot give you an absolutely, correct theological reason. Maybe they are all true. One thing I know though is that our sufferings and disappointments make or break our faith and relationship with God.

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If you go through life seemingly stuck in the middle, in the liminal between where you have been and where you want to be, on the threshold of an unsettled season and in a place where you can’t go back and you can’t stay here - wherever here is for you - but you also don’t know where to go. This podcast is for you.

If you are experiencing loss or have experienced sorrow in all its depth, shapes, and form - whether it is losing your faith, your hope, your dreams, your relationships, your loved one passed away, or you’re about ready to give up on life, listen in.

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