The mental health struggles snuck up on us. And as each of these aspects of life began to erode, I found myself with fewer and fewer sanctuatires. And yet, I did my best to continue to live in denial. At first, the church was remarkable. Things eventually began to change, though. One of the dualistic lenses through which they viewed the world was to see some people as the savoirs and others to be those in need of saving.

The belief that ideas ought to step in a boxing ring and battle it out with each other is known as dualism. Dualism leaves no room for nuance and qualifications. It can even hijack my identity, as I start to view myself as somebody who is always for this thing and who always stands against that thing.

Groups take us in. They love us, care for us, and make deep demands of us. We see it in a Snipe Hunt and as I look back at my years in the church, I see how the same pattern played itself out years later. Today's spiritual practice is a modification of The Riverside Meditation.

Many thanks to Auden Campbell for music and production. Find her at https://soundcloud.com/watchtowerseyes

Snipe Hunting is one part memoir, one part exploration of a Boy Scout ritual used as a metaphor for spiritual transformation and deconstruction. It is also an attempt at pointing to the nondual reality that I see rising up right in the middle of my world. Each episode will conclude with a spiritual practice.