Rachel C didn't start gambling until her mid-30s, but in less than three years, it took over her life. What began with watching casino influencers on YouTube and discovering online slots quickly turned into dozens of gambling accounts and apps, mounting debt, and a growing web of lies she was hiding from her wife. Rachel shares how gambling on her phone consumed her life, why the money stopped feeling real, and how quickly things spiraled out of control.

She also opens up about childhood trauma, losing her father to suicide, her own darkest moments during addiction, and the decision to finally seek help. Just 123 days after her last bet, Rachel talks about the challenges of early recovery and rebuilding a life without gambling.

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This episode contains discussions of suicide and mental health, which may be distressing for some listeners. If you or someone you know is struggling, please consider seeking support. Help is available. In the U.S., you can contact the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 — available 24/7.

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This episode is for the people in our lives who just don't get it.

Drawing from my own 20 years of compulsive gambling, I do my best to explain and educate those who struggle to understand gambling addiction. I address common misconceptions, share what was going through my mind during some of my worst moments, and discuss the challenges of recovery for both the gambler and their loved ones.

My goal isn't to excuse the behavior or minimize the damage we've caused. It's to create understanding, encourage compassion, and open the door to conversations that might not otherwise happen.

If there's someone in your life who doesn't understand your gambling addiction, I hope you'll share this episode with them.

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After 17 years in recovery, Jennifer Krimmel is now the Executive Director of the Kentucky Council on Problem Gambling. Jennifer shares how she moved from hidden binge gambling to lasting recovery. She recounts the highs and devastating losses that kept her caught in a cycle of gambling, alcohol, money avoidance, and self-rationalization, and explains what finally led her to her last bet on July 28, 2009. She also discusses why women and younger people may struggle to connect with traditional recovery spaces, and how support needs to evolve as gambling moves onto phones and into everyday life.

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Life has thrown me some unexpected challenges recently, forcing me to confront fear, uncertainty, and some uncomfortable truths about myself. In this episode, I reflect on the importance of self-awareness, boundaries, connection, and the realization that just because I've stopped gambling doesn't mean I've stopped having things to work on.

I also talk about the challenges of working in gambling recovery while protecting my own, some lessons I've learned the hard way, and where I see The Modern Meeting going from here.

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Four different breaking points. Four different paths back. For this special Recovery Month episode of The Modern Meeting, Adam continues his conversation with Rachel M., Stephen B., Jonathan M., and Mandy S., four people in recovery from four very different forms of gambling.

Part 2 begins with the moment each of them knew something had to change. From a phone call made from a moving car, to ninety days in treatment, to a conversation on a beach that changed everything, they share their last bets, what finally led them to ask for help, and the different paths they’ve taken in recovery. The conversation ends with each of them speaking directly to the person who may be listening, recognizing pieces of their own story, and wondering whether it’s time to make a change.

The experiences, opinions, and language shared by guests are their own. The Vermont Council on Gaming & Health supports person-centered, non-stigmatizing approaches to gambling-related harm and does not endorse language that stigmatizes individuals experiencing gambling problems or gambling disorder.

If gambling is affecting you or someone you care about, support is available.

📞 Call 1-800-GAMBLER
💬 Chat live 24/7 at VTGamblingHelp.org
🤝 Connect with a Peer Support Specialist who understands the recovery journey
💙 Access free, confidential support and treatment resources
🚫 Ask about Vermont’s Voluntary Self-Exclusion Program
https://liquorandlottery.vermont.gov/exclusion-list

RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE

The Vermont Council on Gaming & Health is recruiting people in Vermont with lived experience for a special Lived Experience Advisory Panel. Interested in getting involved? Email hello@thevtcouncil.org.

This special Recovery Month episode of The Modern Meeting is supported by the Vermont Council on Gaming & Health.

Gambling addiction doesn’t always look the same. Sports betting. Online casinos. Scratch tickets. Casino gambling. The games may be different, but the experiences underneath them can be remarkably similar.

In this special Recovery Month episode, Adam is joined by Rachel M., Stephen B., Jonathan M., and Mandy S., four people whose gambling took very different forms. In Part 1 of Different Games, Shared Experiences, they talk about how gambling entered their lives, how it progressed, and what life looked like when it was at its worst. The conversation explores chasing losses, secrecy, financial consequences, lying and manipulation, isolation, the accessibility of online gambling, and the mental obsession that can make stopping feel impossible.

From sports betting and online casinos to scratch tickets and traditional casino gambling, their stories show just how differently gambling addiction can develop while revealing the experiences that can connect people across every form of gambling.

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The experiences, opinions, and language shared by guests are their own. The Vermont Council on Gaming & Health supports person-centered, non-stigmatizing approaches to gambling-related harm and does not endorse language that stigmatizes individuals experiencing gambling problems or gambling disorder.

RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE

The Vermont Council on Gaming & Health is recruiting people in Vermont with lived experience for a special Lived Experience Advisory Panel.

Interested in getting involved? Email hello@thevtcouncil.org.

This special Recovery Month episode of The Modern Meeting is supported by the Vermont Council on Gaming & Health.

🚫 Ask about Vermont’s Voluntary Self-Exclusion Program:
Vermont Voluntary Self-Exclusion Program

Janice Johnson Dowd is in long-term recovery from alcohol. Her daughter Katie Dowd Walker was a teenager watching it happen. Together they host the podcast Recovering Relationships, and they sat down with Adam to talk about the part of addiction most people never hear about: what it does to a family, and how long it takes to come back from.

Janice spent her whole career in the addiction field and swore she'd never become an alcoholic. Katie shares the exact moment she knew something was wrong, and why she still carries guilt about it. And they get honest about the years they were estranged, and the thing nobody warned either of them about, that getting sober was only the beginning.

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Connect with Janice & Katie:
Website: https://www.janicejohnsondowd.com/

Recovering Relationships Podcast (YouTube): https://www.youtube.com/@RecoveringRelationshipsPodcast

Book — Rebuilding Relationships in Recovery: https://www.amazon.com/Rebuilding-Relationships-Recovery-Addiction-science-based/dp/B0D66G562C

Psychotherapist and gambling specialist Sean Bourgeoise joins The Modern Meeting to break down what effective gambling treatment actually looks like. We talk about why focusing entirely on not gambling can keep gambling at the center of your life, creating space between an urge and a bet, rebuilding trust in yourself, and Sean’s “Fire Your Evil Caddy” approach to responding to mistakes.

Later, I take Sean back to 2021, a year before my final bet, and become the version of myself who was still gambling, chasing losses, making promises I couldn’t keep, and believing the next win could fix everything. Sean treats it like a real therapy session, challenging my old thinking in real time and showing what gambling-specific treatment might have looked like before I was ready to stop.

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