My reasons why I declined to be part of a BBC documentary on the Falklands War for the 40th anniversary.

British soldier Tony McNally had a vital job in the Falklands - as a Rapier missile operator, his job was to protect the British ships and men from air attack by the fearless and desperate Argentinian pilots. His war went well when he shot down two Argentine jets - until June 8, 1982 when McNally and his Rapier system were dug in on the hillside overlooking Port Pleasant near Fitzroy, wrongly referred to as ‘Bluff Cove’, providing Air Defence cover for the RFA Sir Galahad and Sir Tristram LSL’s , as they sat waiting to off-load hundreds of soldiers. Suddenly,Argentine A4 Skyhawks screamed into the bay loaded with 500Ib bombs... and McNally's system failed. He and his detachment watched, helpless, as bombs rained down on the defenceless ships. Fifty men of the Welsh Guards lost their lives and many others - famously including Simon Weston - were horribly burned. McNally's life changed in that moment. He left the army after the war and - though he re-enlisted and even volunteered for Northern Ireland - he was riddled by guilt and plagued by nightmares and flashbacks of that awful day. ‘Still Watching Men Burn’ is updated from ‘Watching Men Burn’ and covers his journey back to the Falklands Islands Pilgrimage in 2007 and his ongoing personal battle with mental health up to 2016.

Sons of Eirinn Operation Celtic Jihad The New World Order of the post-NATO era, the GMA Global Military Alliance is the new policeman on the block. Two twin brothers, one a fanatically Catholic Republican Irish terrorist, one a former SAS soldier. Both trained killers on a bloody brutal collision course searching for an Iranian Super Explosive in War-torn Turkey.
Ex-Special Forces soldier Connor (Skid) Ryan is recruited as a ‘contractor’ by his former hated SAS officer to capture or kill Declan O’Malley a notorious Sons Of Eirinn bombmaker. With soldiers from the PKK Ryan has to execute a daring military operation, this time without his Special Forces comrades, before the terrorists can use the WMD on the streets of Britain. The worlds security services of China Russia USA and the UK are all desperately homing in to prevent another 9/11 atrocity on an even larger scale than the World Trade Centre. Can successful new partnerships really be forged between The Sons Of Eirinn and the Swords Of Islam to destroy the Zionists, Americans, and the English? Can western governments work together in the shadow world of military contracting? Can Connor Ryan really capture or even ‘kill’ his own brother? Can he achieve this vital mission even though he is suffering from PTSD? (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?) Post-NATO one thing that remained a constant, the need for anonymous men to do the bidding of those in power, the unspeakable acts of violence, deniable deeds of someone else's nightmare using the unsung heroes that oiled the dirty wheels of Governance, men like Special Forces soldier Connor Ryan and the shadow warriors.