When my son was diagnosed with autism at age two—and later with Fragile X syndrome—I entered a kind of grief I wasn’t prepared for. It wasn’t loud or dramatic. It was quiet, slow, and deeply sacred. It was the grief of letting go of the life I imagined and learning to embrace the one God was writing.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the pain, surrender, and beauty that come with raising a child with special needs while clinging to faith in Jesus. I talk about the silent ache of broken expectations, the sacredness of honest lament, and the unexpected closeness of God in the middle of it all.

Grief doesn’t always come from death—it often comes from the loss of an idea, a dream, or a version of life we thought we’d have. But even there, God is present. Even in our most unspoken sorrows, He is faithful. And even when healing doesn’t look the way we hoped, He still gets the glory.

If you’ve ever carried a grief you didn’t choose, or wrestled with faith in the face of life’s hardest questions, this episode is for you. May it remind you that you’re not alone—and that hope still lives here, too.

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In this episode of In Totality, I’m talking about what it means to truly live as a sacrifice for God.

As Christians, we love the idea of purpose, calling, and blessing, but what about surrender? What about the moments when obedience costs you relationships, opportunities, reputation—or comfort? Scripture tells us to offer our lives as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God… but are we really willing to endure suffering and persecution for His name’s sake?

Whether your walk with Christ means walking away from what’s easy, what’s popular, or what makes sense to the world — it’s worth it! If you’ve ever wrestled with obedience when it’s hard, or felt the weight of standing firm in your faith, this conversation is for you!

Tune in and be reminded: He is worthy of it all!

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In this episode of In Totality, I had the pleasure of speaking with Carl Lentz for a vulnerable, honest, and meaningful conversation about grace, redemption, and what a renewed faith looks like.

This is Carl’s first time on the podcast, and we didn’t hold back. We talked about the power of God’s correction, and the process of rebuilding faith, and what it means to live fully dependent on God — even in the private, hidden places too.

If you’ve ever felt disqualified, distant, or unsure of how to move forward with your faith, I pray this episode reminds you: God still calls, covers, and invites us to walk with Him toward wholeness.

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